難波の南蛮、戎橋の夷。

The Old Life

I am starting to notice a pattern in my life now.  Every time I think I can move forward in my life and forge a path for myself, I feel like some nebulous agent of inertia clenches its greedy jaws shut and wrenches me back into the same old rut.

I decided to give up looking for love half a year ago, because every time I felt like I was about to meet someone who could pull me out from the emotional shadow of my past love life, it always turned out to be a false promise.

Will my quest to follow my dreams to another country end up likewise?

I previously exulted in my being able to find a job in Kansai so quickly.  I had done it, so I thought, and even if I couldn’t get a full-time work visa and had to come back in February, I’d return with work experience in Japan, crucial for applying to companies for full-time work in the future.

But counter to what I thought going into this gamble, the private sector isn’t my greatest obstacle to success.  It is the government.

Despite the Ministry of Justice’s website mentioning nothing of the kind, the document I need to work part-time on a non-working visa can only be obtained by students.  There is no way for me to just work part-time here.  I need the work visa.  There is no “half a loaf”- it is a whole feast, or total starvation.

Fortunately, my employer is patient and kind enough to possibly sponsor me through the process…but it could take more time for the document to be ready, than I have time in the country.  So what started off as a big gamble, just got bigger.  And in the meantime, I can’t even pretend to be supporting myself.  Just hemorrhage money for a month or two before I either get through the system or have to return to America.

The thing is, though, if I can’t make it in time…I’ll still be able to get the certificate and/or visa through the mail, and you know what?  I’ll get right back on the damn plane and come back to Japan again, for REAL  this time.  I swear, I won’t stop until I’m dead.

So I felt pretty awful when I discovered that no, I really didn’t have a job…but you know what, my chances are still not bad at all.

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One response

  1. lord kelvin

    Hang in there, you know it is all going to work out. Nothing worth this much ever happens easily or the first time.
    ‘do or do not, there is no try’
    Love

    December 7, 2010 at 10:29 PM

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